Tuesday 3 January 2012

Biting the Bullet....

After my post on my hopes for the new year it is high time I bite the bullet and go back to Weight Watchers. I have been at Slimming World for some time, and as much as I love my leader, and working there, the plan isn't for me. So on the 18th of January (too skint for now!) I shall be going back! Hopefully I will be going from this -



To this! And yes, that does include being a different colour too, when I get to goal I am toying with a totally different hair colour!



I look forward to a day when this doesn't apply to me -



Haha! I used to have a blog about my weight loss when I lost my original weight before falling preegnant with Emmy. So I shall do the same this time around, maybe it will keep me on track and maybe it will inspire others who struggle.

So, here is to the start of a new positive, happy and healthier me.

Monday 2 January 2012

Do you make resolutions?



Before we start, yes, I am aware that it is the 2nd, but hey, Happy New Year!
So, what type are you? Do you throw out all the leftover Christmas food, raid Sainsbury's fruit and veg aisle and join the gym?
Or do you just carry on as you are, happy with everything you are doing and feel no need to add any pressure on yourself?



Me, personally - well I make resolutions every year. Always negative, well not really negative but always things I want to change about myself, that maybe creates a negativity in my head.
My depression has already swathed me in negative thoughts and if I am to climb from this cloud then I need to be nicer to myself.

So this year instead, this is my list of hopes, dreams and goals.

To be nicer to myself.
I have to stop with the negativity. I need to make more time to be me and find the real me again. Somewhere in the past 5 years I lost her. This is my year to find her and be nice to her.

To be more healthy.
But without beating myself up. First step, I think I will go back to Weight Watchers. It has always been where I am successful. But if I have a slip up I need to accept that, move on and carry on. Again, not beat myself up, be negative and let the feelings of dislike start again.

To be more selective.
Started this already and cancelled my subscriptions to Carmine, GlossyBox, Feel Unique and JolieBox. Sure, they were pretty and exciting, but with that money I could buy myself one or two products that I really love.
This also becomes part of my goal to be nicer to myself. Sometimes I do deserve nice things, my children are fed and clothed. They do not go without so I need to not get mum guilt when I buy myself some stuff.

To get my relationship back.
This is a pretty big admission, but depression has almost destroyed my relationship.
It came to a head in the past month and we have both agreed that while we don't want to split that we are pretty much housemates. I don't want a housemate. I want my husband back and I am going to kick this depression to the kerb and make it happen.

That is pretty much it, I start my voluntary TA position on the 9th of January, hopefully this will give me a confidence boost. Otherwise I want to pass my TA course, socialise with friends more and more importantly I want to smile more!

Bare Minerals - FOTD

This whole face is courtesy of Bare Minerals since the sets I got for Xmas included a hightlighter *does a happy dance*
It is safe to say that I LOVE this brand. Truly love it! Shall list products used at the end.

So, it was really hard to get a good picture. It was 2pm and bucketing down when I took these and light was not great!



As this natural light shot shoes, it was grey and dark-ish outside so I have a blue hue, but you see the colurs slightly better than in artificial light.



This is a close up of the eye. Totally forgot to do an open eye one to show the mascara but will review that soon.

This pic here, well I added it because THIS is the kind of picture I have to sift through to try and get good shots, man, I pull some weird faces!

This look was created using the following *deep breath* All bareMinerals.

Bisque Multi tasking concealer.
Fairly Light Original SPF Foundation.
Azalea blush
Glee all over face colour
Turn On Multi tasking highlighter
Polished High Shine eyecolour
Black Flawless Definition Curling mascara
Flair Pretty Amazing lip colour

Bare Escentuals is available from department stores, QVC, Amazon and www.bareescentuals.co.uk